Tired

Okay, so I'm tired. On Friday I helped out the little first graders! And my friend went with me, so that was fun. We got to colour and stuff, then we got picked up by my mom and went a lake and Tent Rocks. It was fun. We hiked around in there, we went on the canyon hike and the cave loop. I didn't go all the way on the canyon hike, but it was pretty. The rocks were like tents, like, solid rock tents, and it was sandy. My converse got all sandy, but I fixed them. And I had some weird dreams, but I got used to them, I don't think I had a choice though...
And today I washed the dog, cleaned the catbox, and I feel like I'm gonna pass out. Hopefully I get to drive myself to school tomorrow though. That would be fun. And Dion's gonna be at school tomorrow! Yay, but I'm still grounded... That's a long story, anyway, he got his wisdom teeth removed, so he's been gone for a couple of weeks, that's why I'm excited. And Luke was gone all last week except thursday, it was fun. But then he started texting amanda while we were 'camping' and she got mad/depressed. She's gonna fast this week to lose weight. I wanted to slap her because that's not the way to go.
I also saw Enchanted, it was a cute, very predictable, but a cute movie. That's about all I have to say, so I think I'm gonna go take a shower, it sounds like a very good idea right now. Haven't showered since Thursday, gross, I know, but I've been camping, so blah! peace

ZOMG!!!!!

I get my provisional tomorrow, omg I can't wait!!!!!!


That's all.

Sorry

Okay, so I didn't update last night, but I have a very good reason. I was tired. :)
Anyway, I got my re shoot for my continuous scene done, YAY! ME. I develop tomorrow, I hope they turn out well. I think They might be a bit on the dark side because we didn't have entirely enough light, but you'll be able to tell what They are, I hope. Also, I got this freaking awesome hat at Torrid, but it was awesome and was the only thing that fit me, and was about seven dollars, but it was so worth it. Also, I tried on some dresses, and my friend didn't, so it didn't last long. ;) But we had fun, so that's what mattered.
At school, my ex is being snotty to me again. I needed the light to be turned off in this one room, and he was heading out, so I asked, 'Could you turn the light off on your way out?' He looked at me and said 'what' in the snottiest tone. I don't think the most spoiled girl in the world could match his tone, and I repeated myself, then he spun around and walked away quickly. Though, his eyes did get bigger... Don't know what that was about. But I just needed to get that out.
So lately I haven't been reading my book, The Queen's Fool, and I feel bad about it. I mean, it's a good book and all, and I can't wait to read the other 400 pages, but I've been on this thing too much, so from now on I'm gonna be on dA less and other sites like that and be writing more, because when I write, I don't read, so I'm going to try to combine both of those. :) I can come up with a plan.
So last night, I couldn't get to sleep for about an hour, and I guess I finally got to sleep. Then I woke up and it was already three in the morning. It felt as if I had just closed my eyes, because the entire time I was aware of my surroundings and all, so that was a bad way to start the week. But hopefully it'll get better.
I finished my roll of film with my continuous scene on it, so I can't wait to see it. Also, when we were in the food court, they had these Juno things, and I couldn't resist, so I took one. They won't miss it, so it's not stealing. And I can't wait to get my hands on that beautiful little movie.
Also, I'm looking for public darkrooms in my area, so... But I shall keep looking until I find one.
And a friend of mine, we used to be really close but then that fell apart because of another friend who I am no longer friends with, told me that we can work on being friends again! Her boyfriend and I are already on that road, so this makes me extremely happy. They were really good friends, and I am more than willing to gain them back, no matter how long it takes. There are just some people in this world that you're willing to work for, and those are two people who definitely deserve it, in my opinion.
Well, that's all I have to say for now, so bye bye. ;)

REALLY, Not Much To Say This Time

I'm a nerd. This sucks. The other day I was driving, and I saw elven writing on the back of some one's car, and I instantly realized that it was the inscription on Sauron's ring, that one where you can only see it in the beginning of the movie and when Gandalf throws it in the fire at Bilbo's house. See, I'm a nerd. I'm going to go hide now. *hides in a corner*
*comes out of corner* Okay, now for the real stuff. Today I'm hopefully going to re - shoot my continuous scene with a friend at Pay less. It's going to be in one of the isles with my friend looking excited and trying on/looking at shoes. I hope this one turns out like I want it to. That would be awesome. Anyway, I need to do my hair, because it's fun and it makes time fly by. And I'm wearing an awesome outfit, but we don't need to discuss that. ;)
I saw Ratatouille last night, and it's a very cute movie, and I recommend it. I also saw Juno at Wal - Mart last night, and I really really really really really want it. Honest to blog, I love that movie so much. So I'm gonna either put it on the Netflix que, or just buy it on Amazon when I get the chance.
Anyway, I'm off to do my hair, update tonight. Laters

Not much to say

Don't know where I left off last time, but I'm just gonna fill ya in with what I want to say, so... here goes nothing.
So my best friend was 'writing' a story, but she actually plagiarized, so when she sent me a new story, I wasn't gonna read it because I had a feeling that she didn't write it. I told her this, minus the plagiarism part, and also told her about this short little story I had written. She asked me to send it to her, so I did, and the next day I asked her what she thought of it. Her response was, 'It was interesting.' I had told her this with her new story, so I thought that she didn't read it. I responded with, 'That's what I say when I didn't read something, because it's not really in depth.' She said, 'How's it feel?' and I responded, 'It feels like this friendship is over.' She continued talking to another friend of ours about it, then came up with this sad thing, basically saying, 'I can't believe I loved her for the past month, like, head over heels in love.' I said she was full of it and no we aren't friends. And I must admit, my life is so much easier with her out of it.
Yesterday was two friends' 6 month anniversary. They don't talk to me anymore, but I still had their emails, so I emailed them wishing them all the very best, and now the guy and I are talking, but we aren't friends yet, which I can deal with, and the girl hasn't responded, but I'm hoping that she will. They were good friends, and I just hope we can get that way again.
Yesterday during school, a friend of mine asked me out. He's nice and all, I just don't really like him like that, so I said no. I kinda felt/feel bad about it, but I'd rather be happy being single than be miserable being in a relationship. And he talked to my ex about it I guess, and of course, my ex said that I wasn't the nicest person and that it would be a bad idea. And I'm thinking, well, how would he know what I'm like, he doesn't realize that I've changed, but anyway, I'm still single. And during our time in the dark room, there were four of us, I made six prints, and two of one because a friend of mine loved one. See, good person.
Tomorrow I'm going to get a pair of white tights, and then this totally awesome outfit that I've had in mind will be complete! Also, another friend of mine is going to burn me Hostel 2 this weekend hopefully! I love that movie, but I have no idea as to why. But it's awesome, and I do love it. Another movie I've come to love is Cruel Intentions, and it's an evil movie, but oh my god, it's good. I love that line: Kathryn: My advice is to sleep with as many people as possible.
Cecile Caldwell: But that would make me a slut, wouldn't it?
Kathryn: Cecile, everybody does it; it's just that nobody talks about it.
Cecile Caldwell: So, it's like a secret society?
Kathryn: That's one way looking at it. [under her breath] Fucking idiot...
That and: Cecile Caldwell: This sure doesn't taste like an iced tea.
Sebastian: It's from Long Island.
Evil movie, but I think it's funny. The entire time we were watching it, my mom kept saying, I shouldn't be letting you watch this movie. But she let me. :)
I'm on chapter one of my story I mentioned earlier, and I know what I'm gonna do with it. It makes me happy. I'm not posting it anywhere though, like I previously stated. I figured, if it ever gets published, which might not happen, I'd like it to be new to everyone, so... But if it doesn't get published, which is more likely, I'll post it on fictionpress.com. It's my decision, and I like it, so there you have it.
My aunt let me borrow all her Buffy seasons, and I've watched season 6 about three times now, and a few episodes in season two. Apparently I like bad Willow's. Even though I cry when Tara died, and I thought she shouldn't have died, I like evil veiny Willow. But that's just me. Also, for my Angel fic, I have to 'research' Angelus just to see how I could write him. Don't get me wrong, writing someone who is evil is fun, but I also have to include many sexual inuendo's. And I don't know if I can do that, so I have to read up on him and see how I could manage this. It's gonna be tricky, but I love challenges.
I'm still mad at that friend who walked into my house a couple of weeks ago. I know I should let it go, but I lost out on some valuable sleep. And he broke my violin case. Do you know how mean that is? That's an expensive thing. But I suppose what's done is done, and I can't change it. But I'm still mad, I'm not over it.
Nothing else is going on. I haven't made anything in Photoshop lately, so... that's it. Laters

Haha!

Haha, I made that. Just wanted to share. It took about two and a half hours on photoshop with my little mouse pad on my laptop, but still, I think it's pretty good. I tried doing it with a wireless mouse, but it proved to be harder than my mouse pad, so I was like, oh well, I suppose the finger is gonna get sore. But yeah, the one on the right is inspired by Evanescence's Breathe No More and the one above is inspired by Evanescence's Imaginary. I am proud of them, but I'm sure, if I ever get better, I won't be so proud... I think.

It's a Lie

It's a lie I tell you, a lie. I tried finding out the 23 flavours of Dr. Pepper, but it is a lie. There are no 23 flavours of Dr. Pepper. I do not give up though, but I venture there are less than 23. That's all I have.

More Updates

Okay, so that enemy I was talking about on the 6th, yeah, today we had a field trip in Photo. The photo students, all eight of us, went to another school to use the enlargers, and I was developing my contact sheet, and he was sitting in the corner, and it was just the two of us, so I was like, 'Do you have a problem with me?' Then he responded with, 'No.' So then I was like, ok, and went on my business. Later we got into a conversation about stuff that doesn't matter. So now I think that we're on good terms, and it's always good for ex's to be on good terms with each other, especially after the rough time we had...
Anyway, I like this guy at school, so naturally, I told my best friend. Then she told a guy friend of ours, and he, being a typical guy, told said guy I liked him, and asked if he wanted to go out with me. Made me mad. Then the next day, the guy that I like just like, ignored me completely, but the next day, we're all friendly. And he's staring at me... Kinda weird, but I tolerate it. :) Anway, I had a point that I need to get to...
My point is, we all die. Duh, so like, unless we make a lasting impression like Shakespear or George Washington, what's the point with the conversations we have? And I know that that sounds like, really emo, but seriously, what is the point? I heard this song, Bittersweet Symphony by The Verve (Good song, you should google it) and the line that's been stuck in my head is : 'You're a slave to money, then you die.' And OMG, it's completely right. Because when you're growing up (like, 1 year to whenever you move out of your parents house) your parental units are always like, 'We have bills to pay, and food to get,' and such. Then you have the clothes, and when you're a kid, you grow a lot, so you need new clothes every few months... All this stuff costs money, and that's not mentioning all the things we just want. But it's kind of like a game. It's like Life. Omg, who would have figured that life is like Life. Only, in real life, there are more expenses. So yeah, we're just trading pieces of paper or non-existant pieces of paper (credit cards and such) for items that we either need or want. And we get these papers, non-existant or existant, from working. So why do we do it? So that we can entertain ourselves. That's just my outlook on it.
Also, I got Photoshop CS3, and I've done like, two photomanips, and I'm working on my third, and they're posted on deviantart.com. But I like 'em, and I think they're pretty good considering I'm just beginning.
Another point I have. Yes, I don't believe in God, but I believe in powers that be. But I don't believe in God because I can't interact with him. But I got in a conversation about it with two of my friends, and it ended with, 'Why don't you read the Bible and tell us some holes and contradictions that you find.' Well, I talked to my parents about that, and wow, I know a lot once I'm told stuff. Go figure. Anyway, first major contradiction: If Adam and Eve had kids, then those kids had more kids, and so on and so forth, 1: we would all have the same DNA (thank you dad) and 2) the Bible states that incest is a sin. So, we're all going to go to hell because we all have the same DNA and we're having sex and children with our relatives. So much for heaven, right. No pearly gates for us. Contradiction number 2: The Bible says that God will not destroy man, but it also states that he will destroy man. Hmm, undecisive much? Also, it states that God does not get tired, or weary, and yet, on 'Day Seven' of making Earth, he "rested, and was refreshed." Perhaps he lifted too much. Also, it is physically impossible for someone to be turned to stone. I don't care if it's physically impossible by the laws of physics for a bumble bee to fly because it's body had too much weight for it's wings and yet it flies, a person CANNOT be turned to stone. And 'The Virgin Mary,' I do believe that it has been proven by science that one must have intercourse to concieve a child. Just my small take on 'God.' I'm sorry if this offended you though, it's just my thoughts.
Also, found a great new band, Nightwish. I love Bye Bye Beautiful line: Did you ever hear what I told you? Did you ever read what I wrote you? And I just love the song Amaranth. And I Wish I Had An Angel, in the video the male singer looks evil, it's funny, go watch it on youtube.
My room has been clean for a long time, the longest it's ever been clean actually, and I'm hoping to keep it this way for a long while longer. *nods* It's like, bedtime, so that's all for this post. Later dudes.

Cars and Birthdays

So today is my dad's birthday. He's in his 40's. And we went looking for a new jeep. My dad really likes this red one that's a stick, but we all know I won't drive it. Oh, and I'm about to get my provisioinal! I get it on the twenty-second of this month. For those of you who don't know what a provisional is, it's basically like a drivers licence, only there are certain restrictions, like you can't drive after one in the morning, I think, and you can only have one non-relative in the car with you. You keep that for a year, then you get your actual license. I can't wait for just the provisional, so yay!
And yesterday I was tired after my friend left, so I took a nap. Then this other friend of mine came over while my mom and I were sleeping, and my dad was at work. My mom forgot to lock the door, so when no one answered the door, he just walked in like it was his house. My mom tried to wake me up, and did, but I didn't want to deal with him, so I forced myself to go back to sleep. But he was just pissing me off. I mean, you don't just walk into someone's house like it's no big deal. If no one answers, they don't want anyone at the house, or they're sleeping or something along those lines. It's common sense. So I wasn't in the best of moods, and he was there for like, four hours. I was asleep for two, but my mom had to suffer through all four. And he drank my Monster! And just took my beautiful little charging iPod out of it's iHome, basically KIDNAPPING it, and was like, 'Lets see what you have on here.' I wanted to kill him. Not literally, but given the chance, I would have done minor damage. And I was so rude to him too, and my parents are like, 'I don't understand how he can't see that you don't want him around, or you don't want to talk to him.' It's funny, I didn't realize I was that bad, but oh well. He's got to get the message sometime... I hope.
But on to other news. Lately, I haven't been on fanfic, and I've got to say, it's pretty sad when you get so lazy that you don't want to type anymore. I have all sorts of stuff written on paper, I'm just too lazy to get it on to the computer. That's kinda why I haven't updated this in so long. Anyway, I've updated a few stories, including Payment, my Angel fic that I started after I finished season five, This Is How A Heart Breaks, my Sirius Black story, The Unexpected Child, my other Harry Potter story, and I wrapped up The Other Ending, and no one liked it, mainly because I wrapped it up so quickly. But it's been up for two years, and I just wanted to get it over with, I know I know, a bad thing to do. Just like, you know, I don't want to work on this anymore, so I'm just gonna kill everyone except for two people. But who cares, it's out of my hair and I have one less thing to worry about. Makes me happy. And that's about all on the fanfic front.
In the writing news, I have this 22 page story I've been writing, and the 22 pages of size 9.5 font of Arial was just the prolouge or however it's spelt. But yeah, I don't really know how to explain it, but I'm gonna start posting it on www.fictionpress.com when I get to chapter ten, so I'll keep you updated on that. And sadly, that's all on the writing front.
Last week in March was spring break, and my cousin came out from Saturday to Thursday. We did a lot. We went to Santa Fe, then Bandelier on Sunday and Monday. On Tuesday we went to Sky City, and that was a lot of fun. I got a necklace and said cousin bought all of us fry bread. I had mine topped with cinnamin. :P And then on Wednesday, my mom had work, so she and I were going to get pedicures, but that didn't work out sadly, so then we got some lunch, and went to a used book store across the street from where we ate lunch. She got The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, and I got The Queen's Fool by Phillipa Gregory, the lady who wrote The Other Boleyn Girl (which is an excelent movie by the way). Then we went to the mall and she got a coat from Old Navy, bought me a skirt and this awesome choker from Hot Topic, and got herself some earings from Hot Topic, then got me a bag from Claires. I thanked her for everything, and kinda felt bad. And we also got Boba Tea. Good stuff. Then after our outing to the mall, we went home and met my mom there, and then went to Old Town and had lunch there and just cruised around. It was fun. It was a busy week, and I was tired, so I took a good nap when she went.
And on that Saturday, my friend had a little get together and I saw some friends that I haven't seen since I moved to my new school. All in all, I'm doin' good. I'm also seeing a therapist for reasons that only some people know, and that's going well, and I'm actually getting happier and happier, so I'm pretty sure it's helping. I also don't have many enimies anymore. Except for like, one person at school, but it's his fault because he refuses to talk to me. And everyone I ever got in a riff online through fanfic, I appoligized to and now we're all friends! But that's just a recap on what I've been up to, so more updates to come in the following . . . days or weeks, but hopefully I'll update next Saturday or Sunday. :P Peace!

News

Recap: Got a boyfriend, we broke up, love my new school, ate a lot over spring break, and i'm passing every class in school. I'm good. Update later.